How do you cope with something like this?
Cancer. Stage 3c colon cancer. Twenty-eight percent chance I will be alive in five years. Fifty percent chance the cancer will return even with treatment.
How do you cope when your oncologist tries to be proactive with testing and then the mammogram inadvertently finds a mass that has “atypical” cells?
How do you cope when you’re stuck at home looking at videos of your son at the basketball game that you can’t attend since your numbers are too low?
How do you cope when your hair starts falling out?
My answer is that I don’t know.
I don’t know how I am coping or how I am going to cope. Right now life is just day by day, moment by moment.
And while there has been so much bad since October 6, my world has been flooded with even more good. Our family and friends have rallied around us. I have been buoyed by physical and emotional support more than I could have ever imagined. Important relationships have been restored and mended. Every medical person I have come into contact with has been amazing. I have seen A LOT of doctors and nurses and surgeons lately and I truly feel God is hand-picking each person I come into contact with.
So whatever happens, I have to trust that God is in control. A long life isn’t promised …. this is something we all know. Having a stark reminder of my mortality is a great gift this Christmas. This cancer is actually a gift to remind me and maybe all that are touched by my diagnosis that the people God puts around us are everything.
Love is most important.
Love will cover over the rough spots and make it all bearable.
I suppose that’s how I’m coping.
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My name is Ginia Oehlschlager and I'm a small-town gal from Missouri. Join me as I document my crazy life on the farm with my husband and four kids. I'm always looking for frugal, simple ways to live the life God set before me. Where faith, family and fun come together on the farm.